the day started out good, though I woke up later than I wanted to. I planned on making breakfast and all, but didn’t get up until 1 pm :’].  woke up to a text from my new job for a food safety test I had to complete, which took 3 hours just to watch the videos :’) though like an hour of that 3 was me procrastinating to play Minecraft, w h i c h , me and my bf have been playing a lot recently. I wish I could show yall my world, it’s super super cute. We built our base in a lush cave and it’s sooo cute. 

anywho, me and him started with getting lunch, which was absolutely abysmal, mind you. Food was cold, way too salty, and his chicken sandwich was PINK. So we told the manager, which I felt bad about. Because I’m not the one to complain usually, but it was just horrible, and they gave us like half off I think? It was originally 39 and it went down to  12, but 20 in total for the tip, the waitress as amazing and I told her and the manager it’s not their fault, but whoever is in the kitchen. I was super anxious but it had to be done. After all that nonsense, we went shopping, bought each other some gifts. Me , he got me perfume, lotion and a plushie. And I got him a remote car and (mistakenly) an airsoft gun. It’s fun, and I do want to buy my own. But he’s reckless lol. Came home, we had Easter early since weather is gonna be bed. Saw my family for a bit and then played some mc until I did my test. 

in other news. I went to my Dr appointment. Got tested on my thyroid and testosterone, next week I have an ultrasound on my uterus to see if I possibly have pcos. Since it’s always been a concern of mine, because of my weight issues and my excessive hair growth. I got back on medication for my GERD, and new depression medication. Obviously super scared to try it, but fuck it. It has to be done. Might start it next week when I have days off, I got back to work tomorrow and I’d rather not die and be sent home. I’m getting pestered about money from who I live with. I wish I could just quit. 

Trying to get better at skincare and whatnot, also trying to get into drawing. But again, I’ll start for not even a minute before I’m sick of it and want to doom scroll. It’s ruined my life I think. Genuinely. I can’t enjoy things anymore , before dropping them and wanting to just watch TikTok and instagram all day. But I did finish a new game w my bf the other day, we played gears of war 4. My friend told me it’s trash and I lowkey agree, I need to play the other ones, I enjoyed the 4th for it being my first introduction to the series, but I don’t doubt the other ones are miles better, it’s usually how it goes. I also started these olly gummies and I hope it helps for what it’s for, I need to try and remind myself to take them every, supposed to take 2, but starting with 1 a day.

anyway, waiting on my package I ordered, gonna give myself more piercings :P, I’m excited about so many things except having to go to work tomorrow.
 

I got my ride situation figured out! So my family is finally gonna start taking me to work and most likely from work, so I’m saving a little under  $100 in the 3 days that I actually work , (which is insane) . Come Monday, I have plans to splurge on myself finally.  I know I’m gonna hit up Marshall’s and Ross, grab some clothes along with buying this new perfume I wanted.  Gonna also try and find some skincare there as well, along with trying to find a new body lotion. I’m not sure what scent I want to give off. Vanilla strawberry maybe? Like a vanilla strawberry sugar cookie. Yeah. That.

I’m also gonna take me and my bf to  see the Minecraft movie! I’m so excited! Also gonna put an online order on shit I want. God it’s so nice??? I get to actually make myself happy?? Is this what it’s like to have money?? granted , ofc, I don’t make a lot of money, but still enough to buy the things I want and to be happy. (Also gonna try and remind myself to look into like, portable WiFi n shit) 

In other news,  I started locking in and getting a jumpstart on my health/wl journey again. Started the day with a matcha latte, and 2 English muffin breakfast sandwiches, I think I finished the day with around 1500 cals give or take? Net most likely like , 1000 considering “exercise” , really just consisting of work being fucking busy and running around. Which, is fine sometimes. I Try not to hate my job so much, but bitches really be trying me. That and the customers, Jesus Christ. 

excited for my dr appointment, I have so much to talk about and get figured out. I also really want to try and get a dermatologist? My skin if you didn’t know, fucking sucks. I’m super acne prone and my skin is oily as hell. I want to invest in a bonnet and silk bedsheets so maybe it’ll stop breaking out? My issue is things constantly in my face, esp my hair. That and I just pick at it, I can’t stop lol. 

I was thinking about starting up a new personal social media page where I can post my “daily life” nonsense. Yeah I have a twt acc, but I be damned if irls found it. Might start a new twt actually , like a digital diary if you will. 

i don’t have shit else to talk about, might post Monday when I go shopping :) let yall in on a little haul. Gosh I’m super fckn excited!!